Our Battle with Acedia

“I think it likely that much of the restless boredom, frantic escapism, commitment phobia, and enervating despair that plagues us today is the ancient demon of acedia in modern dress” (Kathleen Norris).

Restlessness, sloth, depression, escapism, these are terms we know all too well. On the first Sunday in pre-Lent, the Church looks into our heart. What does it see? Idleness. Τί ὧδε ἑστήκατε ὅλην τὴν ἡμέραν ἀργοί. “Why do you stand here idle all day?” Our Lord is speaking to us directly, with compassion and urgency.

“The kingdom of heaven is like a householder who went out early in the morning to hire laborers for his vineyard. After agreeing with the laborers for a denarius a day, he sent them into his vineyard. And going out about the third hour he saw others standing idle in the market place…Going out again about the sixth hour and the ninth hour, he did the same… And about the eleventh hour he went out and found others standing; and he said to them, ‘Why do you stand here idle all day?” (Matthew 20:1-16).

Idleness. The Greek word is ‘argos.’ It stems from two root words: ‘a’ – meaning ‘without,’ and ‘érgon’ – meaning ‘work’ or ‘energy.’ A person suffering from ‘argos’ lacks drive. Originally, the word was associated with loafers — hired workers wasting time. It also implies barrenness and death. In his epistle, St. James admonishes: “O foolish man, faith without works is dead” – worthless, barren, ‘argos’ (2:20).

‘Argos’ parallels with the Hebrew word ‘iysh’ — meaning sluggard, or slothful.

The Book of Proverbs states:

“I passed by the field of the slothful man…the man without sense; And behold! It was all overgrown with thistles; its surface was covered with nettles, and its stone wall broken down. And as I gazed at it, I reflected; I saw and learned the lesson: A little sleep, a little slumber, a little folding of the arms to rest – Then will poverty come upon you like a highwayman, and want like an armed man” (Proverbs 24:30-34).

The Church Fathers often prefer another word: ‘acedia.’ Evagrius of Pontus wrote about it extensively: “The demon of acedia – also called the noonday demon – is the one that causes the most serious trouble of all.” Acedia is marked by a lack of care. It makes a man bored with a feeling of meaninglessness, restless for distractions, critical of others, and anxious for change. “[Acedia] instills in the heart of the monk a hatred for the place, a hatred for his very life itself, a hatred for manual labor…[He] leaves no leaf unturned to induce the monk to forsake his cell and drop out of the fight.”

Acedia is far more alive and kicking in our modern life than we realize. In 2010, an author, Kathleen Norris, published a book called Acedia & Me. She talks about the way she and her husband have battled clinical depression. She began reading works by the Church Fathers, and St. Evagrius in particular, and was amazed at the insight of ancient thinkers. “As I read this,” Kathleen explains, “I felt a weight lift from my soul, for I had just discovered an accurate description of something that had plagued me for years but that I had never been able to name.” Clinical depression, ADHD, and similar diagnoses are quite real. Psychiatry and therapy offer valuable tools for combatting them, but the chemical imbalance is only part of the problem. Underneath, we struggle with a deeper, spiritual ailment, acedia. The Scriptures and Holy Fathers offer volumes of advice on battling acedia.

“He went out and found others standing; and he said to them, ‘Why do you stand here idle all day?” (Matthew 20:1-16).

How much of our life is marked by spiritual idleness — acedia?

When we grumble to do anything, there is acedia in our heart. The minute you pick up a broom to sweep, you are starting a task spiritual and with eternal significance. But we do not think that way about sweeping, or any of our “insignificant” jobs. The work feels mundane. We grumble, because our heart is clogged up — acedia.

When going to church becomes a burden, when saying our prayers is a bore, when encouraging others at coffee hour becomes unappealing — it is acedia.

When we find ourselves constantly busy and restless, this too is acedia. I struggle with this a great deal personally. Growing up on the east coast with an a-type, entrepreneur as a father, I used to consider busyness to be a virtue and leisure a vice. The opposite is true. Busyness quickly becomes an unhealthy distraction, closely related to slothfulness. Leisure is the higher form of work. We err when anything distracts us from prayer and mindfulness.

“I wonder,” Kathleen Norris asks herself, “Do we stay so busy so as to unconsciously flee from the noonday demon of acedia? Do we fill up our time and our lives with endless activity because we feel that dreadful acedia creeping up on us? Or is it the acedia that drives us forward so restlessly to always doing something – anything – because we no longer have the ability to be still, to truly “rest” in God as the saints described a life of prayer and stillness/hesychia?”

Did you know that to ‘pray unceasingly’ means ‘to be at rest’? The Church defines spirituality with a single word, ‘hesychia’ — inner quiet. It is not the kind of rest that comes from laziness. It is an interior rest, and a rest acquired in the midst of work and struggle. The medicine against acedia is hesychia.

Martha criticized Mary for being idle, but the opposite was true. Martha bounced around from one activity to the other, plagued in her heart with acedia. Mary was working harder, because she was still.

“Why do you stand here idle all day?” (Matthew 20:1-16).

Our Lord calls us to a life of holiness. He comes to us in the market street, in our mundane jobs, in our boredom, depression, and busyness. He asks: Why are you paralyzed? Why are you down-hearted? Why are you idling your time? Come join me in the field.

“My soul, my soul arise! Why are you sleeping? The end is approaching and you will be confounded. Awake then, and be watchful, that you may be spared by Christ God, Who is everywhere present and filleth all things” (Kontakion, Great Kanon of Saint Andrew of Crete).

Christ in the Beauty of Creation

“I want creation to penetrate you with so much wonder that everywhere, wherever you may be, the least plant may bring to you the clear remembrance of the Creator.”

St. Basil the Great wrote these words in his famous homilies on creation. His sermons dig deep into the theology of Genesis — why God created, how God created, for whom God created. There is nothing arbitrary in the universe. Every molecule was designed out of love overflowing from God, creating life with the single purpose to share and celebrate that love. Every bird, every tree, every lake, every work of true art, every meal, every glass of wine — it is a symphony of love shared back and forth between God and creation. We are alive when we become part of that symphony.

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Village Life

Where will you find God? You will find Him in the Temple.

Elder Roman Braga used to reminisce about growing up in his little Romanian village. A day’s work revolved around chiming bells calling the faithful to prayer. The year revolved around feast days. Men and women sought a priest’s blessing before starting a project. It was a life built on faith. Such recollections seem fanciful and romantic to the 21st century person, but are nothing of the kind. This life is, quite simply, nothing more and nothing less than Christianity. The Christian life is a communal life centered around the altar.

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Pursue the Stars

“Opta ardua pennis astra sequi”

“Desire to pursue on wings the high stars.”

A great Roman poet wrote this line, forever expressing the prick in our conscience. Pursue the stars. Life is summed up by this calling. We will never be content on earth because it burns in our hearts. We were made to pursue the stars. Christmas starts the year with the same message. Let every breathe and action be an attempt to reach up: desire to pursue on wings the high stars.

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Fearsome, Sublime, and Awe-full

“The pains of hell came about me; the snares of death overtook me. In my trouble I called upon the Lord…so he heard my voice out of his holy temple…The earth trembled and quaked…There went out a smoke in his presence, and a consuming fire out of his mouth…He bowed the heavens, and came down” (Psalm 18:5-10).

God’s coming is fearsome and sublime. Creation groans with anticipation for God. The stars foretell it. The earth forewarns it. Ants fortify their homes with mounds of dirt the day before a rain. Even so, prophets warn God’s people to prepare: he is coming. Apprehension echoes through the pages of the Old Testament. Today, John the Baptist cries: “Make straight the way of the Lord.” God is coming, and, in the original meaning of the word, God is awe-full.

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What are We Seeking?

“What did you go out into the wilderness to see?

The donkeys had a care-free life until the 4th century B.C. A few lazy farmers got tired of doing their share of the work. “Eureka!” someone said, “I won’t have to work so hard, if I can get this donkey to do it” — the invention of the donkey driven mill. It was a little clumsy at first. The donkey did not see the point of walking in circles all day, and he and the farmer quarreled a good deal. Then the farmer had another idea — a blindfold! Cover a donkey’s eyes and it will walk in circles all day long — head held down, submissive, and servile. Uncover the donkey’s eyes, it will quit kowtowing immediately and have one thing in mind: freedom.

Humans are very much like donkeys. If the demons can keep our eyes shut, they have us in their power — plodding along in meaningless circles, head down and compliant. If our eyes open, the demons lose their power — we become free.

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Look Up

“And when these things begin to come to pass, then look up, and lift up your heads: for your redemption draweth nigh.”

“Look up!” A homeless man wandered the streets shouting this at passersby. “Look up!” he cried to the youth who walked with heads hung down, punching buttons on smart devices. “Look up!” he called to the professionals who lost their humanity in business. “Look up!” he urged each man and woman wrapped up in their unique endeavors. “Look up!” God speaks through his prophets day and night, if we have ears to hear.

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